This’ll be…
Black Widow gave me such fucking feelings.
Can you fucking imagine for a minute, being Alexei.
Watching these girls for months as part of an op, pretending they’re your daughters. Playing happy little family every day after you come home from work. Even if you try to keep your distance, keep that emotional barrier up, fake it til you make it is fucking real. Even a cold hearted bastard has trouble not melting a bit when a little girl calls him dad.
and the day it all ends. The day that playing happy family falls apart, and falls apart almost catastrophically, you’re still in charge of these little girls. And they might fucking die. Them dying is a realistic mission possibility that you’ve fucking tried to come to terms with. You don’t want it, fuck no you don’t, but its possible. You have to remember that.
And you’re trying to keep everybody calm. You’re trying not to scare the little one. Anything to keep her calm.
And her favorite song is fucking Don McLean’s American Pie.
“This’ll be the day that I die.”
How do you stop that from running your blood like fucking ice? She doesn’t know what death is. She’s six. But you know. You fucking know.
“This’ll be the day that I die.”
Yeah.
I can imagine.
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