Its rough emotionally, to be honest. Things didn’t happen that way in the existence I experienced as Vriska. (I use ‘existence’ here because ‘lifetime’ and ‘timeline’ are both tricky to use when talking about homestuck.)

I existed as both what the comic handles as (Vriska) and Vriska, and when we met we merged into one entity. We also had merged with Mindfang via ancestral awakening. Ghost-merges were pretty common all around for just about everyone who died.