My parents did the “best they could”
My parents did the best they could for me
The best they could was
- Spending hundreds of dollars a month on weed when we didn’t have food or clothes
- refusing to cook, and refusing to let me use the kitchen to feed myself
- calling me fat at every opportunity, in every hurtful way imaginable
- telling me I was a sociopath and an iguana with no feelings
- screaming at me for hours on end without allowing me to leave the room
- throwing a temper tantrum and threatening to leave forever when someone made them mad
- threatening suicide when someone made them made
- refusing to let me leave the house
- convincing me that i would be raped and mugged if I walked down the street
- stealing my possessions and giving them to my brother
- failing to acknowledge my birthday while lavishing presents on my brother
- making me feel like I existed to please other people
- making me afraid of expressing my wants and desires
- refusing to acknowledge my accomplishments
- discouraging me from pursuing an education
- pulling my brother out of school at 12 years old
- telling me my brother’s mental and social handicaps were my fault
- yelling at me whenever I was upset about something
- laughing at me for being ‘ugly’
- saying hurtful things and telling me they were ‘just joking’
- breaking my possessions
- claiming they were constantly dying but refusing to go to the doctor
- blowing cigarette smoke in my face and then telling me I had asthma because I was fat
- permanently removing my door from my room to strip me of any privacy
- telling me I was out of touch with reality for not believing conspiracy theories
- telling me my hobbies were a ‘childish escape from reality’
- telling me I needed to ‘act like an adult’ while they acted like children
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